At Last

Laying here,
next to me,
Covered in your sweat.

Thoughts so true,
Come to mind,
But I just cant speak them yet.

Can I?  Should I? 
Take the risk,
And open up inside?

I need and want,
To expose it all to you,
So there’s nothing left to hide.

You need to know. 
You look at me,
And ask if I’m alright.

I toss my pride,
And start to speak,
I’ve never felt more right.

It all come out.
No turning back.
Out come the keeping’s of my soul.

The time is right.
The time is now,
To tell the One that makes me whole.

Because when I look into your eyes,
Let me tell you what I see…
I see everything I want
And everything I need.
Every hope and dream I’ve ever known.
My every fantasy.
Because when I look into your eyes…
Forever’s what I see.

Anytime,
That you’re not here.
Anytime we are apart…

Cant think, cant breathe. 
No way to stop
The pain inside my heart.

Addicted to,
Your every touch,
Every thought and word you say.

The One, my One,
My search is done,
Until Forever fades away.

So when you,
Return to me,
And you’re laying by my side.

One look from you
And the pain is gone.
Again, complete inside.

In fifty years,
I’ll look at you,
Hand in hand as we grow old.

And speak these words
Still from the heart.
Truer thoughts could not be told.

Because when I look into your eyes,
Let me tell you what I see…
I see everything I want
And everything I need.
Every hope and dream I’ve ever known.
My every fantasy.
Because when I look into your eyes…
Forever’s what I see.

Drowning in You

Every time I look at you
Words just seem to escape me.
My mind goes blank, my mouth goes dry.
You have that effect on me.

I don’t want that much from you.
I just want you to love me
Every day for the rest of my life.
You have that effect on me.

Oh, the way that you look
And smile at me…
It’s all I can do.
Can’t you see?
I’m in love with you
And want you hear with me.

…And Away We Go

Must say, life seems like it is about to get pretty interesting.  You know how every once in a while, you can just feel momentum changing or you know something big is happening?  Well, thats what I am feeling and I am curious to see what comes of it.

Thats the thing… momentum is changing and something big is coming… and you can sense that… but you dont know which way the pendulum is going to swing… to the good, the bad or both.

See, there is the restructure at my work where noone knows what may happen to their jobs… but that could open up new opportunites to the 85% of the people that will not be let go out of 20,000+ people.

There is my Grandma’s health situation with being terminal and in home hospice living with my parents… but this has already brought part of my family back together that I didnt know if I would ever see happen otherwise.

There is my promotion last week.

There is the lump on my Violet I need to get her checked out for.

There is my best friend being in town this week from the UK for a few days.

So, lots going on… and all I plan on doing is strapping in, going along for the ride and finding out where the destination is … my intuition is screaming that its going to be a very, very good place.

Everything to Me

What are you trying to do to me?
It’s getting harder all the time.
Your decisions guide my life.
And occupy every corner of my mind.

Every time I look at you,
I just about lose my mind.
Every time I look at you, baby,
Can’t you see?

You’re everything to me.

Another night and I’m all alone
Without you by my side.
Thoughts of you come drifting through
And occupy every corner of my mind.

Every time I look at you,
I just about lose my mind.
Every time I look at you, baby,
Can’t you see?

You’re everything to me.

Just another day
Gone and faded away
Without you by my side.

Don’t know what to say.
Ain’t no other way.
God knows I’ve tried.

Life keeps moving on
Now that you are gone.
Somethings weren’t meant to be.

Don’t know what to say.
Ain’t no other way.
But, you’re everything to me.

Back to You

I try to find my way back to you
But I don’t know what I should do.
We were both wrong in our ways.
Let’s get back to better days.

Because I want you to understand.
Yes, I want you to understand.

You see, it takes up all my time
And you’re always on my mind.
I’ll pass any of your tests
Just put my poor mind at rest.

Because I want you to understand.
Yes, I want you to understand.

Not Another Day

Tell me, what is it that I’m suppose to do?
What is it that I should feel?
I’m stuck between now and then
And my feelings are too real.

See, I told myself that it was for the best
And that it happens all the time.
Soon I might start believing my own words and start thinknig they’re true.
It’s such a fine, fine line.

I’m tossing aside today
On my hopes for tomorrow.
Misery is far to fresh.
The past is close behind.

They say the ends justify the means
Even if it means to bog or borrow.
I don’t think I can take anymore.
…Not another day.

From Within

Life’s so full of changes.
You always seem to make it through just one more day.
Ain’t it funny how life rearranges,
To lead us from the path we thought was our way?

And then you wake up one morning,
And find that you got nothing left to give.
Looking back, you can’t front load your hindsight.
Can’t you see?  This is the moment that you start to live!

It’s always been inside of you.
It’s always been part of who you are.
It’s always been inside of you.
It’s always been guiding your path like a star.

Finding comfort in your daily routines
Now that your life has started anew.
Feeling so much time has been wasted.
But how’s it wasted if all those things led me to you?

Now happiness lives on your doorstep.
Your heart guarded close in the palm of my hand,
Feeling like it’s always belonged there.
Then it clicks… and finally you understand!

Impression at Dawn

As the nights shadows go,
As the sleep disappears,
As the day begins fresh and anew…

As life carries on,
As another day’s gone,
I find myself thinking of you.

Sunbeam Revisited

The miles spanned at Aprils end,
Time and distance were no more.
Two people met, so far away,
Drawn to each others core.

The talk of dreams and what they mean
Ignite first sparks in mind,
“There’s another out there sharing my thoughts?
Could this be the one I dreamed I would find?”

The weeks passed on in loves full bloom,
Questions answered deeper than ever dreamed.
Soulmates found?  Eager to find out.
Destined to be… or so it seemed.

For anything that has true worth
Has a cost that must be paid.
And for them to be together,
The past, to rest, must be laid.

For even in thinking your One is right there,
Awaiting you with open arms,
Does not always ease all the tasks at hand
Or prevent you from their harm.

For there existed another that one was still with
And bonds, already strong, had been made
Comprised of memories past from times shared close,
Unable to let go… to just let them fade.

But both understood the past made them who they were
And as such, led them to where they did then stand.
Each awaited the other, with pureness in heart
And a straining, outstretched hand.

“Why does he wait!?” she screamed inside,
“He’s miles away and only just met!”,
But she felt that she’d always known him
And it’s just in this life they hadn’t met… yet.

“But I’ve shut him out by my own hand!
Taken away all that he needs!”,
And yet still he waited for what he believed true,
His instincts were all that he heeded.

He always had the choice to force through
All the decisions that they had made.
But rather than to cause an ounce of harm,
Alone and cut off he instead chose to wait.

For he knew the position he had put her in,
And deeply regretted that it had to be.
Fate and Destiny are cruel masters,
The present and past matters not to them.  Future is all that they see.

He wished to let himself open up
And take away all her pain.
Just to make her happy in life,
meant that his life would not be in vain.

And she could not have imagined a life,
without her One by her side.
Giving her strength and meaning and purpose
and finally making her feel whole inside.

I wish that I could tell you more.
For that sadly is where the tale stood.
She had not the strength to break away.
He wept alone into empty hands, his crushed heart feeling shut done for good.

Some day, we hope, that all will change.
Fate and Destiny both half smile,
they know, of that, there is no question.
It has been planned all the while.

But for these two to see how they each treated another,
in times so hard and unideal,
allowed them each great knowledge of self.
Then Time stepped in and with Time they healed.

One day soon, with the best yet to come
And the True One  is already en route.
And with the pain and the torment of life’s tribulations
Making them a shell that’s been all hallowed out…

They will soon see the reason, the meaning, the need
For the void that, which in them, does dwell.
And that reason, my friends, is so simple and clear…
It allows for more room for True Love to fill!

For you see, life is not of just good times,
nor is it all of just bad.
It’s a mix of the two and who stands beside you
sharing life’s load while holding your hand.

The Ghost (Two Sides of the Same Coin)

…and sometimes, when I close my eyes,
your smile is there.

…and sometimes, you’re not by my side,
but I can smell the perfume in your hair.

How do you tell the one you love goodbye?
How do you tell them that your love will never die?
How do live half a life without your other half by your side?
How do you tell the one you love goodbye?

…and sometimes, when I walk alone,
I can feel your hands filled with care.

…and sometimes, when I get home,
I hear your laughter in the air.

How do believe in someone you’ve yet to meet?
How do you know they aren’t someone you know or a stranger you pass on the street?
How do you find the strength to go on while not being complete?
How do believe in someone that you’ve yet to meet?

Shared Thoughts

In their minds,
Questions linger,
Unanswered as of yet.

Not asleep,
Yet stumbling upon a dream.
Not shrouded in shadow,
Yet reaching out nonetheless to feel their way.

Time sets the pace,
Slow and deliberate.
Savoring each moment.